I wish to choose less.

Not make fewer choices, but allow less into my life. Less of that which is not me.

Sounds like the opposite of allowing abundance in, but it’s actually a recognition of the abundance that already surrounds and suffuses me.

I wish to let go and get rid of that which is not me so I can choose to be and act on that which is me.

Here’s how I’m getting to what is me: I’m listing some experiences in which I remember living effortlessly, with joy. Then I’ll figure out what was effortless, what was me at that time.

1. Reading _Follow the Brook_ with my great aunt and pretending to be that raccoon family. We used the davenport as our den.

2. Walking carefully across the trestle bridge over the river carrying a case of beer to the dinosaur park. Opening a bottle while riding Stegosaurus.

3. Swimming across the lake in the almost dark.

4. Windsurfing.

5. Hiking through the Lauterbrunn valley in Switzerland. Eating cheese, sausage, jam and bread. Cooling our feet in the stream.

6. Exploring the stacks in unfamiliar libraries. Reading old copies of Advertising Age. Feeling the weight of all those ideas as I turned the handwheel to open the shelf on the other side.

7. Hanging out outdoors on any college campus. Watching people using public spaces.

8. Figuring out how to put something together, how to get something to work. Installing my parents’ dishwasher.

9. Traveling with the train though central Europe, standing in the corridor with the window down, watching the landscape, towns, people.

10. Packing the car and taking off EARLY in the morning for parts unknown.

Okay. So it looks like my abundance includes imagination, adventure, a bit of risk, the outdoors, concentration, quiet time, ideas, discovery, independence, motion. These are what are wish to choose.

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